All good here. I wrote a long post about something today. A realization about myself and perhaps why I really want to numb out with alcohol. In writing it, I went somewhere that surprised me and I realize I'm not ready to write about it. Ahh, the power of writing.
I have decided to go see my therapist over it. It has to do with body image and some hangups from my past. I think I'll use therapy for a bit to get through the past stuff and maybe revisit my coach to work forward from that point. No wonder I make no progress in this area after thinking through some things this morning.
It is amazing what a clear head gives you.
Last night I munched on a few chips/salsa and then had one AF beer during cocktail hour. He had red wine and it was no bother to me.
My favorite non drinking thing is making dinner. Too often I would sit at cocktail hour too long, sometimes too long as to miss the dinner making window so we'd order pizza or have junk stuff that was on hand.
The thing about drinking is that it was automatic weight management for me....to a point. I kept gaining over the years but very slowly because wine kills my appetite. I lost count of how many times I would drink a bottle of wine when my son was younger and not feed myself. I would make him his dinner, kid food, like chicken nuggets and broccoli and cheese or some such, (he always got a veggie) but then I would skip dinner entirely.
When husband moved in it became harder to manage my weight. We started doing real sit down dinners every night, which I love but managing calories became harder. I tend to cook comfort food and I'm not very good with portion control.
Anyway, enough for now, work in progress. At least I'm cooking when not drinking and that is a good thing!
Day 2 without any alcohol at all
Day 7 without any white wine or too much of any type of alcohol
Day 16 without any alcohol out of last 20 days