2 things have resonated with me over the last week:
1) StrugglesWithAlcohol wrote once something like "I don't always drink like an alcoholic but I do always think like one"
I've been re-reading her blog that she started in 2011. She's about 8 years ahead of me in blogging but I could have started writing what she wrote back then as well. I just didn't drift into the blogging world until 2016. She wrote a POST back in 2018 that hit me hard. It's worth a read if you've been stuck in this endless cycle of drinking and not drinking. I keep gravitating back to it and reading again.
It's funny, she probably never meant that her words would change anyone's life. I read so many inspirational things on these blogs and I appreciate everyone's contributions. So many tidbits have "hit" me in the face over the years, such amazing and profound thoughts. Her post is my latest morsel to chew on. It was so "in my face" about what I feel that I almost took a virtual step back and got dizzy reading it.
I embarked on a new phase on Tuesday. Today is Saturday. Only Day 5 today, but still, it IS Day 5! Woot woot.
2) I love quotes attributed to Thomas Edison. I saw this one online the other day....."I have not failed, I have just found 10,000 ways that don't work."
I'm hoping I'm on attempt 10,001 and not 5,000 or something. Yikes!
But I'm feeling good today and that's what counts. I'm well rested, still exercising, not eating very well (but still work in progress), and feeling pretty happy overall.... happy in my relationships I have and accepting of those I don't have anymore. Trying to practice more gratitude and laughing more when things go wrong beyond my control.
I'll end with my other favorite Thomas Edison quotes. Always good reminders!
“Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.”
“The three great essentials to achieve anything worthwhile are, first, hard work; second, stick-to-itiveness; third, common sense.”
“When you have exhausted all possibilities, remember this - you haven't.”
“Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time.”
“Negative results are just what I want. They’re just as valuable to me as positive results. I can never find the thing that does the job best until I find the ones that don’t.”
Dude was wise.