Tuesday, January 16, 2018

Didn't make it but all still good

Well, we fell off the wagon.  I almost wish I could say it was bad, we made fools of ourselves, etc but we didn't.  We just didn't stick to our guns on the Dry January thing.

Oh well.  Try, try again.  The difference is that every day I don't drink feels really good, and the guilt I feel when I drink, and especially then have to blog about it, is horrible.

It's hard to know now how I feel about it all.

What I do know is that even at 2 full glasses a night, I think that's still way over health standards.  It may not disrupt my sleep as much as a bottle would but it certainly is empty calories and impacts my motivation to exercise.  Also, the potential is just still too much there, for regular drinking, that a bad night WILL happen.

I think sober is better, it's just a matter of getting there.  I'm still happy with all the improvements in my life, though, so I'm going to keep working on this!

Congratulations to all those who are still in dry January and to those who are really making it stick.  It's not as if I disagree in any way!  It's where I'd rather be, I just need to keep pushing through these cravings.

What's funny is that I don't think we would have drunk had we gone to that party Saturday night.  But son got the flu so we stayed home and drank the wine we were going to bring for the host.  Sigh.

The next night my folks arrived and the four of us, seriously, split a bottle of white and there was a glass still in it the next day.

Maybe I am making progress.  I normally would have been on to a second bottle after wearing out a few glasses on the first!

I'm not one of these people who wishes she could drink normally.  I'm so beyond that.  I want to not drink at all.  This stuff is poison!  It's just such a mind over matter game against the wine witch!!  Maybe all this guilt and practice is still getting me to where I want to be!

Hugs to all,

HD

7 comments:

  1. Keep going on your journey, whatever that may be. You will get where you want to be. XX

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    1. If I was wanting to just drink normally, whatever that is, I would be very excited.....but that isn't my goal and I am not excited. Oh well. I will continue just continuing!

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  2. Hug
    Think about what you might do differently. Consider it.
    You don’t have to do it, but it’s worth evaluating why things end up the way they do.
    Perhaps if there is no alcohol in you house it would be easier...

    Just information.
    Take care,
    Anne

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    1. Concur re the alcohol out of the house advice. That's how we flailed....because we bought wine as a gift and then didn't go to the party!! Having our own was not the most mature response....

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  3. I like what Anne said. Looking at where you could have made a different choice, if that's what you wanted!
    xo
    Wendy

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    1. Well, that's pretty easy....We could have put the bottles away and not drunk them over the weekend! Lol. So many better choices we can make!

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  4. Sorry to hear about your "fall", I've been there and I pray I'm not going to be there again, but I know how hard it can be to trip up. But as long as you keep moving forward, even if you fall a few steps back, you're making progress. Good luck!

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