Just realized it was Day 8 and I made it through a week!
Last night we had a sporting event. It helped that we had to eat dinner early around 5pm, drive 45 minutes and we didn't get home until close to 9pm. I never would have drank under these circumstances so drinking didn't even cross my mind. It was like having a "free" night from cravings.
I prefer not drinking. I just read LIA LEON's blog and the recent post resonated with me. When I am unhappy or stressed it's easier for me to see why I am craving wine and almost easier to stop the craving. Whereas when I am feeling content, not stressed, overall happy....that's when I have visions of sitting down and drinking the liquid mellow.
I know that visualizing that I won't stop at drink 2, will wake up thirsty, my face will be blotchy and I'll have interrupted sleep will be important to think about!
For now, I'm just really trying to deal with each day/situation as it comes.
Declaring things helps. My first blogging attempt declared that I was going alcohol free. That got me a lot of mileage......until it didn't. I didn't really tell others but the blogging support kept me going. Once I was proud of myself and hit 125 days then it sort of lost it's magical power.
I have tried since but I always let down my blog. It's as if it just isn't enough of a draw to keep me from drinking. I have joined the throngs of the quitters and starters.
So this time, so far, I have done 3 things. Yes, I started blogging again. It still helps even though it's not enough. I also told the hubby I needed to change and he agreed to do a dry January with me. I doubt he'll stick with it but I know I need to get those days under my belt.
Then, and I was really waffling on this, my friend invited us over on Saturday evening so she could cook for us and I could meet her boyfriend and also her sister. They are big drinkers. She never mentions her sister without mentioning what a big drinker she is. When I saw her yesterday I did the unthinkable. I told her that we were really looking forward to dinner but that we weren't drinking and hoped that was okay. She was surprised and it was maybe a little awkward but now she knows! She won't be expecting us to drink and I told her we would bring our sparkling water with us!
This is the first time I really have declared I'm not drinking and so I am looking forward to observing what happens to other people as they drink. I have a feeling we'll be trying to find an excuse to leave early but we'll see. Maybe it will be fun afterall! Should be good food anyway that I will actually taste and savor and more importantly REMEMBER! There have been far too many times where I have had good meals that I didn't take the time to enjoy!
Happy hump day everyone!