Got behind in blogging. It's only been a week since I posted but I feel behind because I didn't update my counting tabs. I feel surprisingly good though! I love reading others blog posts and I can comment from my phone but can't post on my own page very easily.
For now I am feeling balanced. Although I am in the busiest season for me work-wise, I feel so much better than this time last year.
Thanksgiving was really the time I realized I was drinking way too much. I came home, found Sober Mummy's blog again and began reading all the recommended books like crazy. It took me until March to really try quitting and then April before I was able to go more than 100 days.
I've learned a whole lot about myself this year, improved my relationship with my hubby, been figuring out my boundaries with alcohol and am beginning to grasp what my true goals are. I've been getting help with my attitude toward health in general and exercise and am now starting to delve into some unfinished emotional business I need to conquer.
I have been drinking more regularly since August but drinking less than before April. I no longer have the self-loathing. I still have some nights where I see how alcohol affects my sleep. Overall I still wish I could not have any. It was easy when I felt I had to quit because of how I was behaving. Now that I'm not that person anymore, it's harder to commit to giving it up 100%. I have had, and still will have some "moments" where I say to myself...."shouldn't have had those last few glasses" but I hope they are few and far between. They don't seem to happen very often anymore and certainly not weekly.
I know I feel best and look best without alcohol in my system. I know I lose weight easier when I don't drink. I am more motivated in general and I eat better, more healthy. I just need to remember this more often. I still think I'm going to give it up again for a certain period of time, I want to count again! Just....not .....quite...ready....yet.
Happy Thanksgiving this week to all celebrating!
HD
That's great, you're doing well maintain balance. I'm terrible at it long term. X
ReplyDeleteWell, I don't think its good though overall nor am I confident I can keep it up long term. The fact that I feel that way is probably telling....my heart says I want to experience life alcohol free...I should probably listen to that!
DeleteHappy early Thanksgiving.
ReplyDeleteHappy Thanksgiving to you!
ReplyDeleteI read that Thanksgiving is one of the biggest drinking days.
The college kids come home and drink all night.
Interesting.
In any case, I am glad you are learning more about what you want!
xo
Wendy
Happy Thanksgiving HD! Good luck with what you decide to do. I hope you find the balance you are looking for. A x
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